shouldn't have eaten all that ice cream :/

If there's one thing that I've learned, it's that your gut is right about 99% of the time. It doesn't really matter about what; always trust your gut. Why am I telling you this? Well, because, once again, I failed to listen to my gut and low and behold I've been thrust into the endless pit of misery and woe. You're probably thinking that I'm overly emotional and dramatic, and sure I am dramatic and of course I'm emotional I'm a girl, but maybe my story will help you realize that I'm not overreacting.

Let's say you meet a guy and he seems pretty cool and you get to know him and he's pretty much amazing (or so you thought at the time) and you start hanging out more. Then he tells you he really likes you and you really like him and everything seems fine and dandy until he tells you he doesn't want a relationship. Sure he's leaving, but if you really like someone you'll make the long distance thing work and you'll see him when he gets back in a few months and you can still talk and what not. Then he stops talking to you all together. When he sees you again (at the same public function you first met at) he tells you he still wants to hang out, then drives away and doesn't talk to you for a few more days. When you finally get the feeling you should call him and ask what's going on and what you should be thinking he simply tells you that he's not avoiding you, but can't really explain anything at all. Then you're left feeling like an idiot for even thinking things would work out and not listening to your gut when you felt that something was wrong or not to even let yourself get even the tiniest bit close to that guy. And you fight back the tears; tears of anger and feeling stupid. You feel used and it becomes another story to add to the list of you just being another girl to a guy; a girl that was lied to and used to fill a small space of time of boredom and transition.

Do you still think I'm overreacting?

I avoided anything involving letting myself think there was a chance with anyone so that I wouldn't get hurt like this again and what do I do? I let myself think that there may have been a chance that, for once, things would actually work out. And now I'm sitting here unable to smile, unable to even comprehend my stupidity. I should have listened to my gut in the first place; then everything would be ok and i would be smiling again.