michael bublé works miracles

Despite being horribly upset and sick last night, today was surprisingly nice. Sure, the weather was a lil dreary and I wasn't as productive as I would have liked, but it wasn't as horrible as I thought. I did get quite upset at a friend, but how else was I supposed to react? You can't tell someone that they're pretty much pushing people away by caring and not expect that person to be upset, honestly. I decided that to vent in a healthy manner I'd throw around the softball with Rebecca, something I haven't done in a few years and missed ever so dearly. There's nothing like throwing a ball as hard as you can at someone, it's very soothing.

I also realized something (what a shocker). Even though I was so upset about everything last night, I can't stay mad. I'm still upset about how exactly everything was handled, by both of us, but I honestly can't stay mad. I haven't figured out if it's because I'm one of those hopeless girls who can't stay mad at him or if it's because I've accepted that this is how it is and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm hoping it's the latter, but I don't know if I'll ever figure that one out. Now the only thing I really have to try to figure out is what I'm going to do with my life. I think I have it all figured out, but then something else pops into my head. I know that I don't want to go to medical school anymore, but I don't know if I want to go through everything for pharmacy or for dental hygiene. I basically have to decide this next week because darn registration is so early for me.

I also miss home. Here in Boise I feel like everything moves so much faster, but when I'm back home everything moves really slow and I feel like I have more time to do things. It almost makes me want to take a break from school to just relax, work, save some money, and figure out what I want to do. I know I won't start school again if I do that though, which is rather disappointing. The first chance I get, though, I'm going right back to Europe. Until then I'll just have fun here in Boise. What else am I going to do?