time to rant and rave

I don't think it matters anymore how hard I try. Whatever I do just isn't ever enough. Maybe they don't understand that losing my best friend, and having to take two jobs, and find another job in Boise while I'm still here, and switching my roommates/dorm, and being ditched by other friends, and having to leave all of my friends behind because they're all going to different schools or living here is a bit more than I can and want to handle. It's like they don't think I have anything going on in my life. Just because I sit on the couch and watch some tv when I wake up because I have a day off doesn't mean I don't have cares. Do they even know what it's like to go through all that crap? Even if I wanted to tell them they wouldn't listen; they never do. It's like they don't care or something. And it bugs me how I will act EXACTLY like my mom, say what she says and how she says it, even just jokingly, and my dad will get mad at me and say that I'm being rude but he won't say a thing when my mom does anything. He won't even say, "Honey, maybe you're being a little too hard on her." NO. She's never in the wrong, it's always me. ALWAYS! I don't even try anymore. It's pointless. They're always unhappy with what I do. The only reason I'm still living here is because I really have nowhere else to go and I have no way of paying for college unless I'm here. That makes it even worse. I don't want to have to rely on them, but I have no choice. I hate being trapped. I want out. I just want to be able to be me and for once have somone realize that I'm doing something right. Is that too much to ask?