thinking..yet again

So I've been thinking lately...I mean there is the obvious quesiton of whether or not I will make a smooth transition when moving to Boise, but have I fully accepted the fact that I really am leaving and I'll pretty much be on my own?

If there's one thing I learned while doing all this horrid thinking [i feel i think waaaay too much] it's that you really do have to just move on and you can't let your past hold you back. Ya...life sometimes sucks and people will hurt you and lie and do stupid stuff, but you can't let that get in the way of things. If you let your past control you, you don't have an open mind and then you'll never laugh, nevery experience life, never find true happiness. You'll constantly be looking for something to complain about, or to not trust someone, or to claim someone hurt you when really you're the one hurting yourself.

You also have to make things happen. Sitting around doing nothing and hoping for something to happen won't make something happen. Many a time I've sat on my couch or here in this very chair in front of my computer or the tv and waited for something to happen, someone to make plans. And yet it never happens. The best way is to just make plans yourself...start something...LEAD don't follow.

But don't mind my random rants. I just think a lot and it's best to get these things out or my mind goes crazy and I can't think straight.