So today it really hit me, I'm leaving for college in 10 days. I'm not gonna be around any of my friends, and I'm gonna have to do everything for myself. Talk about scary. When it's farther away you don't really realize how crazy or scary it is, but once it's like a week away you realize it. I'm gonna miss all of my friends. I actually cried today when one of my best friends was talking about me and everything we've been through. You really don't know how much you love, yes I said love, you friends until you start to realize that you won't have them around you anymore. I've had friends move away, I've lost friends, but it's just not the same. I guess it's because I've been relying so heavily this past year on the people around me. Without them I really don't know where I would have ended, as dramatic as that sounds.
I know that you may have already seen this video...but I think it's time to watch it again.
P.S. Don't mind the corny ending (:
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
latest rant/question
Is it so bad that I want to live MY life the way I want to live it? Is it bad that I don't want to be like everybody but still do the same things? Is it bad that I want to do something with MY life and be successful?
Lately it feels like the answers I get to those questions are yes, yes, yes, and yes. I don't understand why or how that is, but it seems like people think I'm going against everything and that I'm going to ruin my life. For once I'd like people to be happy for me and stop expecting me to live the lives they want me to live. One person is still trying to convince me to go to another school. Another is trying to convince me to go into another profession. And yet another is trying to convince me that I shouldn't even do anything I want to do. Can somebody explain to me how that seems fair, logical, or even comes close to making any sense?
I know exactly what I'm getting into and I know the sacrafices I'm going to have to make. I don't feel I'm doing anything wrong and that's all there really is to it. I would just like people to get off my case about EVERYTHING I do and for once let ME be ME.
I am not becoming of the world, but rather living in the world and making the most of it. I beg of you to find a flaw in that. Please, tell me what is wrong with it.
Lately it feels like the answers I get to those questions are yes, yes, yes, and yes. I don't understand why or how that is, but it seems like people think I'm going against everything and that I'm going to ruin my life. For once I'd like people to be happy for me and stop expecting me to live the lives they want me to live. One person is still trying to convince me to go to another school. Another is trying to convince me to go into another profession. And yet another is trying to convince me that I shouldn't even do anything I want to do. Can somebody explain to me how that seems fair, logical, or even comes close to making any sense?
I know exactly what I'm getting into and I know the sacrafices I'm going to have to make. I don't feel I'm doing anything wrong and that's all there really is to it. I would just like people to get off my case about EVERYTHING I do and for once let ME be ME.
I am not becoming of the world, but rather living in the world and making the most of it. I beg of you to find a flaw in that. Please, tell me what is wrong with it.
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